Work and I

Ugh.... Terrible!
Was in school today till 4!! What for you ask? Why, work of course! NO, I wasn't studying and I wish I had been, then I wouldn't be panicking now. Can't believe exam's in ONE week! Oh no! Okay, now I’m really really scared. ONE week?!?!?!! ONE!??!? (Screams)

Anyway, that's not what I was talking about just now, is it?? Nope.
Today, ah yes, right after the bell that signaled the end of school rang; I headed to the Ed room to start work. My DEADline is today. Urged Tian Huei to come help me as soon as possible coz she has her ELS thing.
Regret letting Yi Kinn use the com... He was using it to type his blue house data, which i needed right away. His was the last one. Well, haha... it's not like he didn't do the data, he did, but umm...umm.... ok, ok, it was partially my fault. But then again- what do you expect me to do other than delete it if you send the data to my email with the title 'You are a monkey' ???? I mean, doesn't it look like Junk? JUNK! Why would I open something with 'You are a monkey' as a title!?! For all you know, it could be...*gasp* virus. Better safe than sorry right?
So anyway, I only knew it was the data on the next day... umm... too bad. When I managed to find the time (time IS precious) to actually go online (mind you I'm not allowed to go online on weekdays) check the trash can, it was *poof*

GONE.

Sorry Yi Kinn, but--

1. It was your own fault for putting the title as 'You are a monkey'
2. I'm NOT a monkey.

So Yi Kinn sat there cracking his head, putting random names in the list while I stood there... umm... stood there...stood there.... umm....umm.... while I STOOD there. fullstop.
Well, what d'ya expect me to do? I'm not in BLUE house!
Ok, I didn't just STAND there, I made myself busy doing other stuff. In the end, I decided to pass his blue house data up next week instead since it would appear that i forgot to save the Chinese society's data... Hee... Yi Kinn owes me a hundred.
Then, work officially started. Tian Huei and I printed and printed and printed and printed and I couldn't finish it coz Braden or Bob ( dunno why he likes ppl calling him as Bob instead of Braden) needed to use to com. Being the good, kind citizen that I was, I let him use it.*
Fortunately, teacher gave me extra days to finish up the work coz she didn't want parents worrying about their children, pulling the last of their hair out while screaming our names on the street, accusing just about anyone and I mean EVERYONE for kidnapping their kid and getting horrified stares from the passersby, who of course back away immediately, trying to get as far away from them as possible in case they got the 'desperate arm grip' where they hold you by the arm so you can't run, look you in the eye and scream
"GIVE ME BACK MY BABY!!"
Wow. Imagine that. Now, you wouldn't hold a student back if you thought about that, would you?
So with a sigh of regret,(I'm regretting coz I don't get to use the school printer [unless the room opens tomorrow], so I'll have to waste MY ink and MY paper instead of the schools...) I packed up and left. (Had to go home... Florence was my last hope and she was leaving. If I didn't follow Flo out so she could give me a ride home, then well, let's say I wouldn't be typing away here now. Would have still been in school...till dunno when...)

THANK YOU FLORENCE AND FLORENCE'S MUM!

Sigh... We'll see what happens.
Oooooh! Guess what?!?!

I DIDN’T EAT LUNCH...

Just ONE guava. Well, one PIECE. Yea. That's it.
So if you'll excuse me now, I’ll have to stuff myself with food, so my big fat tummy will be satisfied...

On another matter,
Yi Kinn wrote on my paper--editor's note

Monkeys like cookies
ee likes cookies

ee is a monkey

Huh. We can all see that this guy knows his mathematics. Haha... **
(Not sure if that's 100% right. It's more or less like that. Will change it if I find it wrong.)

*Ok, so I didn't exactly let him use it right away. He asked me about a million times but I said "No", "I need to use it", "I'm busy, don't disturb", "Nope!", "Wait for me to be done", "Can't you do it another day?" ..... and finally, "Ok, What do you have to do? Be quick."
I let him use it coz he said he only needed to type 3 words. THREE!!! Turns out, it took quite a while.
Well, it doesn't matter anymore because I've got more time. Wait--actually, it DOES matter! MY ink! MY paper!!!
Anyway, sorry Braden for being quite rude.

**No, I'm NOT a monkey.

Ahaha... Look what i found! I'm a ... GEEK. Yay!!! Now we all know what a geek is!Though... i don't remember any laughing by all the 'popular' (why is popular in inverted commas?) kids... hmm... maybe it has yet to come... oh oh...
Anyway, hooray to those who are getting viciously, i repeat, VICIOUSLY beaten for making me insecure.. (laughs) YAY again!

Oooo...

Your Life Path Number Is 5

5 You are very versatile, adventurous, and progressive. With a 5 life path, you are one of those people who is always striving to find answers to the many questions that life poses. You want to be totally unrestrained, as this is the sign of freedom and independence. You abhor routine and boring work, and you are not very good at staying with everyday tasks that must be finished on time. You are, however, a good communicator, and you know how to motivate people around you, perhaps inclining you to be a teacher of some sort. A love of adventure may dominate your life. This may take the form of mental or physical manifestation, but in either case, you thrill to the chance for exploration and blazing new trails. You are apt to be multi-talented, but just as likely to suffer from some lack of direction, and there is often some confusion surrounding your ambition. On the average, the number 5 personality is rather happy-go-lucky; living for today, and not worrying too much about tomorrow. It is important for you to mix with people of a like mind, and try to avoid those that are too serious and demanding. It is also important for you to find a job that provides thought-provoking tasks rather than routine and redundant responsibilities. You do best dealing with people, but the important thing is that you have the freedom to express yourself at all times. You have an innate ability to think through complex matters and analyze them quickly, but then be off to something new. In the most negative application or use of the 5 energies, you could become very irresponsible in tasks and decisions concerning your home and business life. The total pursuit of sensation and adventure can result in your becoming self-indulgent and totally unaware of the feelings of those around you. In the worse case situations negative 5's are very undependable and self-serving.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

This sure is true... Interesting... How did they know? Does this mean Jiayueh and Fei Hoai are EXACTLY the same as I am? Hmm...
Anyway, I'm kinda in awe to find this number. I've always thought of the number 5 as my lucky number... so when my life path number came out as 5 too...umm... yea. Coincidence? Ha... Maybe shouldn't believe in these things so easily huh. Ha!!

You tell me if what they say is true yea? Goooood.

Another nice pic. Aya and Toya from Ayashi no ceres. Many people don't really like this anime, but I like it. hehe...

Nice pic? It's from Shaman King. Haven't watched the anime, but i really really want to... I wonder who has it..

Geek eh?

I'm a GEEK. Full stop. haha... a geek. Hmm... That’s BAD right?

Took the Stamford College test. Wonder if they're right.
Anyway, I know you've already seen this on Christine's blog, but I don't care. I'm a geek too and therefore, I get to post this in! HAH! Nothing to say now do we! ahaa...

Okay, here goes:
Characteristics of the Geek Personality:
My Strengths: Planning, Analyzing
My Weakness: Perfectionistic (whoever said this is a weakness? I actually LIKE being thought as a perfectionist but whatever you say..), Overly critical ( I thought being critical is good...oh never mind)
What Irritates Me: Unpredictability (well, THIS is true. I mean... who knows what'll happen tomorrow? Who knows what I'll be in the future??? I wonder if I’ll be living on the streets, penniless, or something... I wonder if I’ll disappoint myself once again and get really bad results for SPM. Well, umm... I know, I know, I’m not exactly working hard towards it, am i? haha.. i get the message! I'll try to post less here!!! Haha.... ^^)
My Natural Goals: Accuracy(This is important! This is kinda like being a perfectionist right?), Thoroughness
What I Fear (Ooo...): Criticism (NOT TRUE! As I said earlier, I think criticism is GOOOOOOOD! GOOD I say! I LIKE people criticizing me! *)
What Motivates Me: Progress

You are indirect and guarded. Your strengths include an eye for detail and accuracy, dependability, independence, persistence, follow-through, and organization. You are an analytical, detail-oriented, systematic, logical and persistent person who enjoy problem-solving. You are more concerned with content than style. You like controlled environments.(I don't get this... Like what?) You make an efficiency expert who enjoy perfecting processes and working toward tangible results. You like to work at a slow pace, which allows you to check and recheck your work (true). You tend to see the serious, complex side of situations. Your intelligence and natural wit, however, endow yourself with unique quick and off-the-wall senses of humour(huh?). You have high expectations of themselves (I suppose) and others (really?) and can be over-critical. (CRITICISM IS GOOOOOOOD). Your tendency toward perfectionism taken to an extreme can cause paralysis by over-analysis. ('...' I am speechless...) You tend to become irritated by surprises and glitches. (So NOT true. I think... someone surprise me now! Ok. Good. I don't feel irritated. ahaha....)

Well, I think I don't get irritated by unpredictability but rather FEAR it. Yup. But for certain stuff only. Not ALL. Therefore it is wrong to say that I get irritated by surprises! HAH!

Suggested Careers for ME:
Accountant (Hmm... That IS my second choice. For certain reasons)
Auditor (What's that?? hehe... I'm VERY stupid.)
Psychologist (Interesting... Though I think I’M the one crazy... so...)
Lawyer (Ooo!!! I've been thinking bout being a lawyer too! But it SEEMS like you have to memorise all the laws... absolutely HATE memorizing... but I was told it's more of understanding in law. Not really memorizing. I'll have to find out. If that's true... Heh Heh...)
Researcher (What kind?)
Software Engineer (Would someone Please tell me what engineering is all about? Till now, I'm STILL a big blob of blurr about it)
Marketing Executive
Actuary (oh! ANOTHER one I've been thinking about! Though... it's a whole lot of statistics right? I don't know... not exactly the biggest fan of stats right now... Maybe I got off the wrong foot with it... Will try my left foot... Ha...)
Writer, Novelist and / or Poet (Would LOVE to be these, BUT I have extremely BAD vocab. Christie will make it though, in my opinion.)
Music, Food and / or Movie Critic (I LOVE MOVIES!!!!!!!!! YAY!!! But, being a critic? Do I need good vocab for that??? Music... umm... hehe... I love LISTENING to music, but to specialize in it? hehe..)

Well, all in all, not a bad thing being a GEEK if you look at the amount of career options matching my thoughts...

Basically, I'm trying to find for something I LOVE, INTERESTING, and umm... yea. Interesting. haha..

*Haa... to a certain extent that is...

Two unnamed poems

Yup, Two unnamed poems here....
Will try to think of their names soon.
Suggestions are welcomed.

Written on 28/3:
Her eyelids started to fall,
But she knew she couldn't,
She shouldn't-
Fall asleep.

A huge mountain towered over her,
She was timid and small,
It overpowered her,
Taking her from sleep.

Inside, she screamed out for help,
Inside, she wept.
It hurt deep inside when no one came,
But it was reality, a fact.

Who knows how hard she worked?
Who knows how much she gave?
No one saw her late a night,
No one saw her-the slave.

Silently she cursed those who were heartless,
Those who did not care,
But curses were useless,
The pile was still there...

Written on 30/3:
Silently she wept,
No one was there,
She knelt down in pain,
No one cared.

She hoped and wished-
Help would come,
That someone, anyone,
Would take her by the arm.

Hug her tight,
Whisper in her ear,
Those comforting words,
She wanted so much to hear.

She was alone,
Left there to rot,
Or face her doom,
Whichever she fought,
She knew she would lose,
And yet she had to,
For she had no choice,
She was the fool.

She was afraid,
Afraid she was,
She tried to get out,
But she was lost.

Slowly,
Tears trickled down,
No one-
Saw the frown.

She tried so hard,
Time after time she failed,
She knew she couldn't do it,
But she couldn't bail.

Why did she get picked?
Why her? she asked.
Silence-
It wasn't a play, no lines, no cast...

DONE! Not that good huh. that's what i thought. Oh well, hope that didn't dissapoint you that much....

My worst days--notice the 's'

YUP! I've been through it all! my worst days... though i predict another one coming soon.

well, the first one was on wednesday.
You see, there's this inter school impromtu competition.
ok, just to make it clear, i LOVE talking, but am totally talentless in talking in public. i can't! i mean... I really really CAN"T! Even if i prepare something, and MEMORIZE it, i'd still forget when i reach the front of the umm... ppl.
i don't mind talking in front of ppl i KNOW, but when i t comes to ppl i'm not so close with, i just freeze, and BLANK. like a white sheet of paper.

so anyway, i was sitting in class, innocent little me, minding my own buisness when our english teacher(let's not name names) for now, let's call her Ms. E(for English) came into class and said
' i want AT LEAST 3 ppl to join the impromtu competition.'
and i was thinking... well, not me! I mean, i wasn't going to sign myself up for it, and i'm sure someone else will, so lalala.. none of my buisness right? RIGHT?? but no...
Ladies and gentleman, here is where my luck starts to go downhill...
Right before she left the class, she says:' Li Ee, you're in.'

Can you believe that?? It was like someone slapped me or something. I sat in my place, in shock. i stared after her. Wait. i said to myself. Did i just hear what i THINK i heard? NO.... WAY....
Li Li, who was sitting beside me, was panicking too. As you can see, her name sounds almost like mine. I was hoping SOOOO hard that maybe teacher said Li Li's name but.
ok, so then, my class monitor, wrote my name down on THE LIST, and i screamed "NO!!!" in horror. I CAN"T POSSIBLY DO IMPROMTU! First thing's first, i like knowing EXACTLY what i'm talking about, which i believe isn't so in impromtu. Secondly, as i said earlier, i can't even present what i prepared a million years ago properly(yes, I'm exaggerating but bare with me) so how can i possibly present something i didn't prepare AT ALL?? PLUS! I NEED all of me to overcome the fear of speaking in public. HOW do you expect me to rack my brain at the SAME TIME to come up with crap to talk about???? HOW???

ok, then, my monitor cancelled my name from the list because i was screaming like a mad girl. What a relief! Let us all just heave out this breath we're currently holding. ah..... all is well. NOT!
Ms. E just has to come into class then, take the list and say:
"Who's name got cancelled?"
and of course, DUH, it was ME.
Ms. E: "Li Ee, i want you to join!"
Me(practically shaking): " I... can't! I'll... FREEZE!!!"
Ms. E: " I know you'll freeze. that's why i want you to join."
WHAT!??!?! I couldn't believe my ears! DID she just say that???? OH NO. NO... WAY....
I felt like i was in a dream. i NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!
Then, before she left, she said:" Li Li, i'm preparing you for oral interpretation.'
!!!!!! that lucky girl! O.I.??? I'd rather do O.I. a MILLION times than do impromtu ONCE!

I tried calling her(Ms. E) back, but she ignored me...

Then, i asked Li Li to pinch me, but i felt nothing.
So, myb it WAS a dream! right? RIGHT? no. wrong. coz in dreams, everthing is a little blurer. i mean the pictures. Li Li's just a bad pincher. hah.

After that, i asked Li Li to give me some words, but i was BLANK. absolutely BLANK. the whitest sheet of paper....
Well, i've got to think out of the box says Yingxu. I'll try. I'll try.
Xue Fen said i should just you know... not go. But! i know if i don't go, i'd get killed. So, basically, Do I have a choice here???? Answer: NO.

I think the competition is on Monday.
I'm DEAD.
save me...............

The second incident happened on Friday.
It was like this:
Li Li and I were practicing our oral presentation with the help of our 'director', Brian, who had left school last year to study in UK. Anyway, we practised(well, it was more of laughing) for about 1-2 hours when Li Li said she had to go to the library. She was going to come back again later. So, we(Brian and I) stayed in the classroom.

Just 10 seconds after Li Li left, a teacher, Mrs. D(for discipline) came and did her 'rondaan'.
It seems that we were in a restricted area. A classroom.
She came in, and started making assumptions.
First, she THOUGHT that we were a couple. WHAT?!?!??!!
THEN, she THOUGHT that Brian was going to rape me or something... double WHAT?!?!??!?!

She actually looked at me like i was this innocent little 5 year old who knows NOTHING about rape cases and knows NOTHING about protecting herself and said :" You could have been raped."

'...'

She looked at Brian like he was a really bad person, who like luring little girls up into classrooms to rape them... she actually said :" well, we don't know. He might be a bad person for all you know." right in front of us... WHAT?!??!?!

We tried explaining to her that we were doing NOTHING she thought we were doing, and were not GOING to do ANYTHING she thought we were going to do either, but she didn't want to hear it! How unreasonable! Then, she copied down our names and said she was going to give it to the discipline teacher. We'd have to explain ourselves to the discipline teacher.

I seriously thought i was dead meat. Well, i was.
I've never NEVER been accused of something like that before! Then, she asked us to LEAVE. so we did.
Immediately, i went to find for Li Li to confide in her or rather throw my anger and for the second time this week, shock somewhere.

After that, on the way home, in my sister's friend's dad's car, we were talking about it and her dad overheard. He's in the PIBG and said he knew who Mrs. D was. He told me he would talk to her for us. and he did! When we were at my house, my sis's friend called and.....We're off the hook now! THANK GOODNESS!

I would like to take this opportunity to thank Brenda's dad. You're a lifesaver. THANK YOU!

p.s. I think it was basically Brian's hair that got us into trouble. It's SO long! He looks like a ganster really... maybe that's what the teacher thought...Maybe she thought this GUY here with the long hair was thrown out of school coz all Brian told her was : " I used to be in this school." Which! can be misleading...